I Want to be... SKINNY!?

Okay, let me explain.
1. that title was mainly for attention BUT, there is truth to it.

Here's the break down:
I know and understand that I am AVERAGE. Meaning that I know that I am not "fat" or "skinny".
However, I want to bust out of that boundary, to go beyond having a body that I consider to be more than just average.

So how am I average? I'm going to be real, and honest here.
I am not the stick skinny type of girl. I fall in the healthy, even fit range. But, I do have a little tummy and some unwanted fat here and there. I got meat and curves, in fact, I am considered to be on the thicker side side as opposed to the super thin side(IMO). And as crazy as it may sound... I don't like it.

Why? Simple. Although I live in North America... I am completely influenced(aka. brainwashed) by Asian standards. I know I am not alone in this though.

Sad isn't it? I have friends who see me go swimming covered up and they yell at me saying "HECK, If I had your body... dklagjasdfkhgla"  and so on. But, even if I try, I just... can't like it.

However, I know I need to accept it and I just need to work with my body type. So that is what this post is for.

So what am I going to do about this?

For starters,
If I had to put this into Kpop terms...
(Kpop influenced me most about weight and appearance btw, if you haven't figured.)
The first photo in this post is a picture of Goo Hara(KARA). She has a 21inch waist, 'nuff said. Even though it's natural for her. It's SKINNY to many others, and so they envy.

Now, idols such as Bora, Hyorin(Sistar) and Hyosung(Secret) best match what my body type is. They are more "voluminous" as some have put it, when compared to other girl groups.

Bora(black), Hyorin(pink)

Hyosung

Media heavily influences, so why can't I use it to influence me in a better way? Rather than obsessing myself over the tall, thinner ones, shouldn't I be inspired by those who are more "healthy" looking? I need a motivator, a goal, that is REASONABLE. I guess, at times... I can love the more curvy and voluminous body type. 

But really, I need to work on my own perceptions, and there is a LONG WAY TO GO.

Yet, there lies another problem... I know A LOT about health and fitness, and how to view things in a balanced matter. No joke. Then, why am I complaining?

BECAUSE IT'S HARD.

It's one thing to know something, but it's another to follow and believe.

I know my weaknesses and I have yet to know my limits. Therefore this post marks my beginning of sticking with a goal. To have it clear in front of me.

This is an average girl's physical journey to becoming BETTER, STRONGER and hopefully, happier.
Physically that is.

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So what is my body type?
Well vaguely, I am a small framed, pear(by measurements).
My weight?
it fluctuates between 116-118lbs
My height?
Standing at 5'4''

I am classified as average or fit. I work out around 3-5days/week if not almost everyday.
Seems good right? Where's the problem?
I. can. eat. or binge... and I love bread... every girls nightmare!! This results in me not having the body I aim for... So basically, I am just balancing it out, not being able to go over and beyond.

I don't need to lose weight. I know that.
Yet I can't say that I just want to be healthy and that I don't want to lose weight, I'd be lying.
In the end though, as long as I am content and happy, numbers do not matter that much.

My goals(plainly and specifically put) are to be around 110lbs, to get the 11 ab lines :D and to overall become thinner and stronger.. among other things.

What am I fixed on doing?

I will not binge(of course, balance is needed though).
I will do my best to eat fresh prepared food(stick with a proper diet).
I will accept and love my own appearance.

I WILL reach my goals. I AM determined.

I must keep these in mind.

I guess posting this is to motivate me to try harder with all my effort. If I fail at anything, I expect constructive critism that will make me feel HORRIBLE. Which is good, because it might push me to do better ^^

If any of you want to embark on this journey with me. By all means!
Let me know what you guys think too!

Review: New Adult Greys(EOS J-203)

Hello! I'm here with a review~

This time I will be reviewing the new adult grey lenses by EOS.

I've always wanted a more vibrant grey pair of lenses ^^ *happy happy*

In the vials

Ratings:

Color & Design: 5/5

The design is not natural, and the color is quite dramatic/bright so these lenses are super noticeable! The limbal ring really defines your eyes and makes them pop from the contrast with the inner grey color. Although the lenses are a solid grey, the pupil hole is smaller and has the tiny black lines so it aids in making it look somewhat more blended.

Comfort: 4/5

I can feel my eyes get dry after some period of time, but then again, I experience this with most lenses. Eye drops would easily fix this. Aside from that, I cannot feel them as they are quite thin :)

Enlargement: 4/5

These seem to enlarge more than the old adult series, from what I understand. Also, because this design has a black outer ring it is a given that there will be some enlargement.

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Overall I am fond of these lenses. Of course, as a bright and very noticeable grey lens that is. They give off more of a mysterious look and so, when people look at you... I'm sure they'll be mesmerized xD

Here are some photos of the lenses in different lighting:

Indoor: florescent lighting

Natural lighting (1)

Natural indoor lighting (2)

 Face shots:

** I played around with my makeup too, therefore, the darker than usual makeup ^^;;

Speaking of which, would anyone like to request a makeup look for me to do? I had one for a smokey eye look and will work on doing it soon!

Of course, I am not saying I am a professional though! but if anyone has anything they'd like me to blog about, please feel free ^^

That is all for this post!

** ViVi December 2011 ~ Mag Scans **

Click below for the scans.

PAN-PAN's First Giveaway

Yep, she's holding her first giveaway! Congrats PAN-PAN to having 100+ followers ^^

Here is the link and photo to her giveaway: CLICK

eBay Wig + Falsies Review

Hey all :)

I changed my layout! It's not what I really want.. but I still am not familiar with all the codes and such so simple is the way to go~ for now.

A while back I ordered some falsies from eBay in style 058(LINK) because I was searching for some lashes with a sparse design. You could say these resemble the Melliesh No.1 top lashes. I really wanted to try this lash design and eBay had these for cheap! Compared to the actual Melliesh lashes anyways :P And these had 10 pairs in each box.

Well, here's how they look when worn:

Similar right!? Haha

However, the melliesh ones have thicker lashes in between the thinner short ones. It is very close though. Also, these lashes have a clear, invisible lash band which is quite thin and it isn't as curved too much either. So applying them may take more time as opposed to other lashes I have used.

The lashes are pretty comfortable, light and are not too fake looking. Not a voluminous design but if you are looking for length, this is it.

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EBAY WIG REVIEW(medium length bob)

As wigs are so popular in Asian countries, I wanted to own my own :P Actually, I was tempted to cut my hair short before but knew that I would miss my LONG(navel length :O) HAIR! So I ordered this wig online to test out how I would look if it was shorter. 

Here are some snaps with it on:

LINK for the wig

(FYI: I really dislike and am insecure about my side profile. HAHA but for review purposes...)

I ordered this in dark brown.
The wig did not come with a wig cap T^T so under it my hair is actually just tied into a bun.
But It's alright, I think I won't ever be wearing this outside anyways. Just for picture purposes ^^;;

-- All ratings are out of 5--

Natural?  ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ (technically, 3.5)
It's a bit on the shiny side though, since it is synthetic. But if nobody knew it was a wig, this could totally pass for your actual hair. In photos, the texture looks more realistic than in real life though.

Style? Accuracy? ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆
Pretty much spot on, except for the fact that it's a bit "puffier" and shorter than the actual photo(which I am so sure that the "model" is not even wearing a wig... Since she's actually a Chinese net idol =.='') but the wig is more accurate to the photo than I thought.

Comfort? Security? ☆ ☆ ☆
I am not a wig expert. I am a noob. LOL it's my first wig ever that's why!
But I rate this wig a 3 in this category because... there are no clips that help secure it to your head! You could use your own bobby pins and such but many other wigs have clips sewn on. This wig does have a strap to fit it snug on your head though. But still... 3/5.

Overall?  ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆
Yeap, this is a four star wig xD But remember, I am also considering the price. Which is $12.55 <-- CHEAP.
I personally am not fond of it on myself irl, but in photos, it looks a bit better. *sigh*
And honestly, I made a mistake of ordering a wig with straight bangs. I should have purchased one with side bangs haha well, I plan to one day get another one :P

What do you guys think of it?